I had my first session with Pyschologist to determine whether it was worthwhile me having further assessment for Aspergers.
It was a very strange situation as it was recommended that I took someone with me who knew me well or who knew me from childhood. As a single person, the logical person to take was my mother. There were somethings I remembered about my childhood and somethings she did. It was was a very straightforward session in some respects, asking very basic questions. I have no idea where my answers sit on the Autistic spectrum.
What is the make up of your family? How did you achieve at School? Well, my family is very ordinary, I have two parents and a younger brother. I always achieved well at school, particularly in English based subjects. I was the highest achieving female at English in my entire year. I was well above average and the only girl to achieve exceptional for a 15 year old.
What are my hobbies? Reading. Books are the love of my live. No contest. In fact, my ex boyfriend couldn’t cope with my love of reading.
Do you like fantasy? I am a massive Star Wars fan. (My mother describes this as an understatement). That weekend I went to see Rogue One. (I LOVED it).
What was my last holiday? Book shopping in Hay on Wye. Why else would I want to go on holiday???
What are my biggest issues? Definitely my eating habits. I can’t eat green food and I’m very sensitive to texture, which is why I can’t bear pasta or rice, amongst others. I hate being touched which causes problems with other people. I also can only cope with people for a certain amount of time, which has resulted in me locking myself in cupboards to get away from people. I have obsesses signs (an entire session in itself) and wore my Sherlock hoodie, which says I’m not a physcopath but a high functioning sociopath, to the mental health unit. That’s what happens when your appointment is so close to the latest series of Sherlock.
The final question was what didI expect from a diagnosis. Certainly not a cure, this is so much a part of me now that I can’t Imagine my personality without it. However, last year I had ended up in a very dark place (another story for another time) where my coping mechanisms had failed me. And as a result I became very ill. I never wanted to be in that position again.
I had no idea what the phychologist was looking for, but at the end of the session he said it was worth me getting a full diagnosis. To here someone completely impartial agree with my suspicions was nothing but a relief. So now I’m on the waiting list for a full diagnosis. Already though, just somebody listening has made me feel that I’m not abnormal as someone I had never met took my concerns very seriously, so imagine what a formal diagnosis might do…